Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Inspired (Cancer Sucks!!)

As you may or may not know cancer is a part of my life within my family. It sucks big time. I lost my mom to it in January 2001. Hurting is knowing there is nothing you can do to stop this from happening to someone you love so much. My mom was terminal by chance because of the other disease that she had. The other people effected by cancer in my family (Besides those who help them through it) are my Grandpa Paine-bone cancer, my mom-bile duct cancer, my pepe (dad's dad)-skin cancer, my meme (dad's mom)-breast cancer, my dad-mouth cancer, my mother in law-breast cancer, my father in law-colon cancer, and my husband-skin cancer. I feel like my kids are doomed to get it somehow. I am hoping that they will not but with the odds stacked against them like this really it is a matter of when, not if.

The reason I am writing this is because  a few things happened around here and the world wide web. 1. Relay for Life
2. Reliving my daughters first relay for life she was a little over 1 1/2 years old.
3. Watched a video of Zack Sobiech. That video is amazing. Please watch it. It makes me wish I had known him before. By the way I can not get his song clouds out of my head. I am so sad that he is gone but so glad he touched so many lives through his music. He turned 18 May 3rd and passed away May 20th. I love the way he just lived. His song clouds is awesome too. My thought's and prayer's go out to his family and many friends and girlfriend in the loss of him. He was truly inspirational.



The video's in this blog are made by soulpancake productions.

Monday, December 17, 2012

Light at the End of the Tunnel

With everything that has gone on since Friday December 14th, it is hard to ignore that we live in scary times. I had a conversation with my daughter Carolyn that I never wanted to have. I had to tell her before she saw the mess that was on the news. Almost every channel had what happened at Sandy Hook. I told her the facts which are 20 children, who were her age, and 6 adults were killed by a man who was very sick and needed help but hasn't gotten it. It is okay to be scared and sad. I am too. Then I told her that most likely it won't happen at your school but in case it does your teachers are trained to know what to do so stay calm and listen to them.

I thank God that I have my children everyday!! I hold them closer to me now knowing that this is a possibility anywhere. Carolyn just turned 7 so she is the same age as most of those kids and it breaks my heart to know that.




In the heart above there are 27 candles one for each of the children and staff and one for the mother of the young man who needed help, because she was a victim too. I saw the poem below on someone's facebook page and thought it was perfect in how to describe how I feel and how I know those children now feel, welcomed into the light safely home in Heavenly Fathers arms.

twas' 11 days before Christmas, around 9:38
when 20 beautiful children stormed through heaven's gate.
their smiles were contagious, their laughter filled the air.
they could hardly believe all the beauty they saw there.
they were filled with such joy, they didn't know what to say.
they remembered nothing of what had happened earlier that day.
"where are we?" asked a little girl, as quiet as a mouse.
"this is heaven." declared a small boy. "we're spending Christmas at God's house."
when what to their wondering eyes did appear,
but Jesus, their savior, the children gathered near.
He looked at them and smiled, and they smiled just the same.
then He opened His arms and He called them by name.
and in that moment was joy, that only heaven can bring
those children all flew into the arms of their King
and as they lingered in the warmth of His embrace,
one small girl turned and looked at Jesus' face.
and as if He could read all the questions she had
He gently whispered to her, "I'll take care of mom and dad."
then He looked down on earth, the world far below
He saw all of the hurt, the sorrow, and woe
then He closed His eyes and He outstretched His hand,
"Let My power and presence re-enter this land!"
"may this country be delivered from the hands of fools"
"I'm taking back my nation. I'm taking back my schools!"
then He and the children stood up without a sound.
"come now my children, let me show you around."
excitement filled the space, some skipped and some ran.
all displaying enthusiasm that only a small child can.
and i heard Him proclaim as He walked out of sight,
"in the midst of this darkness, I AM STILL THE LIGHT."

Written by Cameo Smith, Mt. Wolf, PA

My hope is that through all this tragic mess that conversations will take place that things will get fixed so that this won't happen again. There needs to be an open dialogue about the problem of mental illness not being treated with the respect it deserves. My hope it that this comes about there is such a need for it.

It is hard to see this as light but I say it is because it has opened the eyes of people who don't know to learn and start to care. Social media is great but communication and love for one another is what is needed to help our nation heal and learn to care for those who have issues like this one.